"Break"

Hmm... This spring break doesn't feel like much of a break. It's still stressful, busy, and I have homework! I also have to worry about another playing test when returning from break. :-/

I've been practicing a lot because, last playing test, with the stress of midterms, I didn't play nearly as well as I know I can. So, even though I have to work hard to play the pieces effortlessly, at least it is something I enjoy doing!

What I am not looking forward to is the amount of rehearsals we have after spring break. Sometimes I really wish I could just play for fun, but sometimes I feel like the symphonic band makes everything seem too forced. We should be able to just relax and play. Some people are more musical and talented than others, so it gets frustrating to keep starting and stopping at the same place in one piece if a certain section messes something up.

Music can be such a relaxing thing.. Something I always look forward to doing on my own time...
But sometimes the demands and expectations of being in a band gets to be stressful and takes the fun out of it.
I don't know, maybe I am just stressed out. Don't get me wrong, I still love playing clarinet and music... right now I just would prefer to have a little more fun with it!